I cannot do this anymore...I feel sick more then I feel healthy, I feel tired more then I feel awake, I hurt more then I dont, my body is telling me it cannot function like this anymore. It is failing me. I feel like I imagine a 90 yr old feels. I am miserable more then I am not. This is no way to live and function, to just exist in this type of misery. It is hard to walk, hard to breathe, hard to sleep, hard to just be....why do I let this addiction rule my life.....rule my body and take me away from my family and friends? What is going to be the final straw, is my body going to kill me 1st or am I going to make a drastic change to save my life?

Why?

Why do I time and time again eat so much that I feel sick for the next 5 hrs because my stomach is filled so high???? You think I would learn but nope.

Enough Said